I just want to be able to hear your name and not start bawling my eyes out and hating myself and I want to stop thinking about how flawless you are and how much of a piece of shit I am. When will I not be affected by you. Why did you have to come and ruin my life and my own self.

You and your stupid fucking girlfriend ruined me and I will never forgive you for that. Fuck you both for the mess you made me become. Not like it matters anyway not like either of you give a shit. Or anyone gives a shit.

Can I just die now so I can finally have my peace.

I shouldnt still feel this way after 2 years